So yesterday i had my 2 year review. We actually get a review every quarter. This just happened to me my 8th quarter. Anywho, the whole thing went fine and they praised me saying how much they love me and what an important person i am to the company, etc. etc. Not to toot my own horn or anything. The one thing that bothered me was the same thing i get on each and every review. and each time it comes up, it pisses me off. And each time i try a new strategy to improve it and change the behavior. But yet there it lurks..... every single time.
It's an attitude problem. I got me some tude. well, at least that is what they say. Now i work for a father/son studio that is Japanese. Now the tude thing, amazingly enough isn't their complaint. it's fellow co-workers. And not the ones i work with daily. It's the ones i have to contact with. Intereting, huh? The first time, i thought, wow, i should really try to be nicer to them. So i was..... and i still had tude. Then i decided, well, they can't complain if you don't interact with them..... wrong. Still have an attitude problem. No matter what i have done, i have this problem. So when it came up again yesterday, i was like- this is bullshit. How can people have an issue with me if i have nothing to do with them! Then i came to the conclusion- It's not me. I am not the problem. I have done nothing wrong. it's all them. all them. they can have the issues with me all they want. i am not going to change myself. it's is hypocritical. How can you praise me for being me and then tell me to change. it doesn't work that way. I think the guys downstairs have an issue with strong women. if i have a problem with you, i will tell you. i won't hold it in or go to the supervisor. i will tell you directly. I have had my issues with them downstairs, but i tell them. now since they are men, i would think they would have the testicles to be able to handle it and move on, or tell me if they have a problem with me. They don't. They have to tell my boss. Then they say that i sit up here and do nothing while they are slaving downstairs. Please...... we have different jobs. my job is not the same thing. yeah, so i get to sit on the computer and fuck around all day, then go out and schmooze and booze with clients. But that is part of the job. I have to do it. Get hit on my creepy dudes, try to sell them something they don't need. And damn it, i am good at it. I can sell ice. But really, it's not selling the ice, it's selling you. So, if you ask me, i think it's a wee bit of jealousy. Get over it boys. There is a strong minded, blunt irish woman here and i am not going anywhere. i am not changing me. Never. so fuck you. I will always be who i am unapologetically. i am proud of who i am and if you think i will go back to being a 1950's housewife....... fuck off. put the crack pipe down. And by the way, i am older than them all. So respect your elders little boys before i stomp all over you!
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