Cranky

I am cranky today. I hate being cranky. I feel like i want to scream my head off. It started yesterday. They are building a wall in the office where i work. I had made a specific request of placing a window at the top of the stairs so we can see people coming and going. They placed it over the stairs and said that it was aesthetically pleasing. I started to grumble and had to re-explain why it was important to have the fucking window at the top of the stairs. We need to see if people come and go. It's a safety concern. I don't give shit whether it is in nice balance of the two doors....... i can't see shit if it's over the stairs. i would like to know if there is someone outside my door or stealing shit from the other room. The other reason that i got all pissed off was cause the guy who i expressed this concern to was being a total douche bag and didn't want to move it. I hate lazy people. I told him why i wanted the window in that spot and he shrugged and didn't care. Now he is also one of the guys who works downstairs and has nothing to do with the office, where i am every single fucking day. I know how this place runs, who comes in and out of the space and why something like that is important. I also am the only girl who works here, so i had to pull the girl card. I know, it's not something i am proud of, but shit, they were making me feel like i was retarded or something. I said- hey, as the only WOMAN who works here, i would like to feel a little safe and know who is outside the door.

Well, i did get a small window next to the door. It sucks. i don't like it, but i knew they weren't going to budge. I gave up. I went to Tae Kwon Do, kicked stuff to get my aggression out, but i am here looking at the shitty little window and hating it. I am hating the people for putting up the wall. I am hating. hmph.